Hello there, nice to meet you!
Of course I feel braver! With make up on, I feel more confident. But here's the thing...
Cleaning up my face after putting on some makeups, even just a small amount of it, makes my skin really dry and a day after that, bam! Breakouts here and there. I've tried every no-sebum makeup products out there, primer, foundation, powder, cleaning my face with no-alcohol cleanser, using deep pore cleanser, putting on moisturizer after washing my face, but still, it happens everytime. Especially on vacation, I don't know why, but everytime I travel the amount of breakouts will multiply! So I always try my best not to wear any makeup. And every once in awhile when I need to put on some makeup, I try to follow through the cleansing procedure, in hope that it won't cause me any breakouts the day after that.
Putting on makeups with that worries in mind doesn't make me happy at all. So I thought that I need to find a way of how to be confident without any makeup on.
So here's how I feel about it, and how I deal with it.
Since I know that my bare face is not that pretty (lol), so being confident without any makeup is a little bit hard to do. Even reading all kind of self confidence books and articles doesn't keep me from being sooooo self-conscious without makeup. I can't help but thinking about my dark undereyes, my crooked nose, asymmetrical cheekbones, uneven skin textures, pores, chipped lips, OK enough... I know I'm being too hard on myself ha! Actually it's not that bad. I don't really think about it every single time, just sometimes when I'm talking to people, buying things in a store, meeting new people, I can't help myself from being self-conscious from time to time. And this is what I find amazing about makeup. I can be more confident with it, braver when I talk, I can smile (yes, even smiling is a bit hard to do when I'm being self-conscious), and most importantly, I don't feel intimidated by new circumstances.
So I got only two options to deal with it :
1. First, learning to live with the fact that it causes me breakouts, I can't wear any makeup, and instead, build my confidence even without it.
2. Second, learning to deal with my breakouts no matter how hard it is, and find a way to wear makeup again, because I love the way it makes me feel, and I love experimenting with it (I love putting on colors on my face, the art of shading and highlighting, and I love how makeup has the power to change my face completely)
By the end of the day, well, I choose both... I learn to have more confidence even without makeup (this is important), but also, my stubborn personality doesn't allow me to give up on trying... I try to find a way to deal with my breakouts, and thank God, I think He has favor over my stubbornness, because I find enlightenment for this very important thing... I just cured my breakouts completely a few days ago, by taking a facial treatment in an aesthetic clinic. And this treatment was awesomeee... (In case you ask me what treatment this is, I'm sorry) I don't know what this is called, it's like a spray gun with oxygen and acne serum in it, I just know it worked out amazing for my acnes hahaha. They dried the day after, all of them! And yes, you can feel my excitement...
I'm so happy! And since the day I found this acne treatment, I've been putting on some makeup again. Imagine how happy I am. When some people start to notice and say that I'm prettier now. It feels ecstatic.... <3 Trust me that every little effort to make ourselves prettier brings so much pleasure. And subconsciously, it helps my confidence boosted even without makeup.
Well everyone, that's how I feel about makeup... And I don't know how to end this. OK, I hate making closure. Well, just, bye then!